Wildly confused

Wildly confused

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adjgkadlga. [28 Jun 2005|06:33am]

[ mood | blah ]

[ music | ... ]

k. I can't remember my freaking password to this thing, and it's pissing me off..

damn deadjournal for not sendin' me my password either, they keep sayin' they will..and won't.

I can only long in & update 'cause my password is saved on my client thing..

but that means I can't long in to the website... grrr..

so yeah, eventually..I'll no longer be able to write in this thing, even though I've had it forever..'cause, whenever my client is no longer on this computer, or I get a new computer..my password=completely gone & no way to access it.

hmm, yeah.. kinda annoying.

I've changed passwords way too much... I have no clue what this one was either.

but yeah. since Roudy's been reading this..hi to you.

ha.

anyway.

I doubt I'll update much anymore, 'cause I lack the energy..plus the fact that it'll just get deleted soon anyway.

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hmm [19 Jun 2005|12:02am]

First--- name 15 people you know of the opposite sex.
(randomly in no particular order.)

1. Roudy
2. Ben
3. Brandon H
4. Marshall
5. Ryan T
6. Matt
7. Eric
8. Mike
9. Perry
10. Ramsey
11. Stephan
12. Brian Q
13. Corey
14. Russ
15. Brian K
..................................now fill this out....................................

How do you know 11? We dated a good, long while...

Have you ever had a relationship with 13? Ha, yeah. I guess a short one.

How about 10? Not really a relationship

Ever kissed 4? Yep

Ever wanted to kiss 7? No

How'd you meet 8? Roudy's best friend

If 2 and 12 ever met would they fight? Probably, Brian hates everyone..and Ben's a wise guy

What kind of relationship do you have with 3? Hm, he likes me..not mutual, so.

Is 9 someone you see yourself married to one day? Nope, he's mormon- so he can't :] but either way, he'll be a great husband for someone.

How'd you meet 6? Ah, I adore Matt..through Brandon H & at school

Where does 15 reside? Hwy 90 in Conwayyyy

Is 5 an ex of yours? Yeah

Where does 14 work? For his daddyy

How well do you know 1? Well..we do date, so yeah..

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blah blah blah [18 Jun 2005|12:01pm]

[ mood | tired ]

[ music | Mariah Carey- We Belong Together ]

yeah..wow. well let's see.

I started to type this thing more than once, and I had like a book & it got erased..rawr..

Graduation, was pointless..

Hot, boring, long..etc.

Roudy hasn't talked to me in 3 days, he's pissed off b/c I supposedly was supposed to call him, and never did..so now he won't speak to me. Pretty dumb, esp. seeing how he calls me every night, but okay.

He did text me after I was bitching at Mike the other night, but then said he didn't feel like arguing, and goodnight..wtf? I wasn't even trying to argue..MY GOSH.

Then..last night Mike was texting me talking to me, and he said he thought it was both of our faults, and that Roudy felt like I was trying to push him away lately- but I never deliberately ignored him for days straight, I talked to him every fucking day..yet..he can ignore me for over 3 days & it be just fine?

Mike said for me to call Roudy, but I was at work..so I couldn't try again..then he said he'd talk him into talking to me last night, but Roudy sent an IM to my phone saying "I don't really feel like talking to you tonight, I'm still very pissed off"...wtf..okay..fine...I give up on that.

My graduation party was Sunday.

It was so hot. So many people. I wanted to scream.

My dad f'd up one of my jet skis, grrRr..but he's getting it fixed.

My car needs to be washed badly.

Ramsey came to my graduation thing, hmm..that was interesting.

I miss Matt.

:[

Hmm..what else..

I've worked 6 days this week..

I started waiting tables..woo..is that interesting.

Haha.

I waited onnn...hmm... 5 last night, and made 50 bucks.... anddddd 7 last night and made 73 :]. So I'm getting like 10 bucks off every table so far..what what?! haha..123 bucks in 2 days is good for me, seeing how I can work 2 weeks and get a pay check of like 150 for hostessing.

I dunno, I'm tired of typing & trying to remember what to write about seeing how it's been awhile.. I'm determined to update a lil bit more..

But yeah.

Adios.

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wowzers. [04 Jun 2005|11:35pm]

[ mood | tired ]

[ music | Simple Plan- Untitled ]

So it's been a month since I've updated this friggin' thing.

That's ridiculous.

I've never went that long.

School's definitely been out.

Bike weeks went by, they sucked.

Drama as always, it sucks.

Graduation is Thursday. joy.

I gotta go pick my yearbook up Monday. double joy.

I get my new puppy I bought tomorrow..he's a miniature pomeranian..Preston Riley ;]. He's solid black w/ a white dot under his chin..he'll only get about 3-4lbs, and right now he's under a lb. He's so so cute.

Roudy's been driving me nuts, again. All we do is freaking argue lately, still..I hate it.

Brandon likes me.
Ben still likes me.
Mike likes me.
The other Mike likes me.
Mo likes me.
Steven likes me.
Adam likes me.
Donny likes me.

Yeah. All of these idiots..all at the same time..and I'm like, screw off..even if I was single, I'd rather turn into a whore than get in another serious relationship..haha..as bad as it sounds, it's true.

I refuse to.

All it's been doing lately is rain. rain. and rain some more.

But yeah, it's been so long..I have nothing to say, 'cause I don't remember much.

Take care.

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you and me [04 May 2005|11:29pm]

[ mood | tired ]

[ music | Lifehouse- You and Me ]

'Cause it's you and me, and all other people..and nothing to do, nothing to lose.

This is definitely my new favorite song, lol.

I worked 4 days last week, and friggin 5 days eventually this week. EESH.

Drama w/ Ben, keeps on.

Pain in my ass, yes. indeed.

Today was my last actual day of classes. Friday I have my 2 exams.

I was supposed to go to work today, but they called and told me I didn't have to come in.

Me & Roudy are good now, I think.

We had a huge argument the other night/day..heh..Led into him almost crying his eyes out..eh, oh well. over and done with.

I got my hair highlited again, it ended up being bleach blonde everywhere so I dyed it everywhere, so it's now like this medium brown/aubun color, heh. whatever.

I really am not in the mood to update, plus I don't have much to say.

So, yeah.

Adios.

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cause i aint no holla back girrrll [28 Apr 2005|11:18pm]

[ mood | tired ]

[ music | Gwen Stefani- Holla Back Girl ]

hmm wow, it's been a longggg, long time.

My birthday was Sunday. yay for me.

My dad gave me 500 bucks.
200 gcard to Belk.
Surf racks that I wanted for my carr.
Some clothes.

My mom gave me some money.
Some clothes.

Fun stuff..

The Saturday before my birthday we all went bowling..and they embarrassed me and sang happy birthday and crap ;[.

Sunday, we went againnnn..and it was Danny, Jason, Jason, Mom, Sammy, Tammy, Smokey, Edward, Steven & then Ben came with Willie.

It was decent I guess..

A lot of people forgot, including family, heh.

Danielle didn't even bother saying happy b-day for one..

Roudy & Mike called me when it turned 12 though.

Monday-Wednesday I've worked so far, I work Saturday too.

Didn't go bowling Monday..heard some shit went down with Ben & this other girl that we work with, heh..

I found out about this Wednesday.

Needless to say. I got real pissed off.

For one, I was supposed to leave early- but didn't get to.

For two, Ben just pissed me off.

Third, all the comments from everyone pissed me off even more.

My mom brought Ben out in front of me, (this is how I found out) and Eric was standing there too..Ben was shaking his head big time to Eric to tell him to keep his mouth shut, while my mom questioned him..then, I was like..wtfever and walked off, and my mom said this was their convo..

Ben- "why the hell did you have to bring it up in front of her?"
Mom- "she's not stupid Ben"
Ben- "I know she's not, but you didn't have to do that"
Mom- "why would you do that shit anyway- don't try and hide it for one. I swear you better not fuck with my daughter's head, I don't care what you do to the sluts that work here"
Ben- "I've never said anything out of the way to Bree"
Mom- "I never said you have, you're good to her- but that's just screwed up"

Heh.

So yeah, I wasn't talking to anyone after this nonsense.

Ben kept coming up to the hostess standing acting like nothing was wrong, or nothing happened (he didn't know my mom informed me of everything after I walked away)..he was trying to get me to talk, but it didn't work..

Him- "What's wrong with you?"
Me- "nothin"
Him- "You aren't talking or anything"
Me- "obviously"
Him- "I thought you were supposed to leave early"
Me- "I was"
Him- "I'm guessing you're tired of being here"
Me- "More than you know, I'm sick of everyone here"

Ha.

Ass.

Later when we went bowling, I still wasn't real talkative, but more so then at work..and he says.. "You're in a better mood at least, I thought you were pissed at me earlier" Me- "I was."

Rawr.

;D.

Guys=jerks.

Me and Roudy are slowly talking less and less. It sucks. I dunno. I'm getting aggravated ;/

Not just with him though, with everything.

My dad & Kim have been bitching him out. She had him not talking to me, he is now..but I refuse to talk to her.

He got me into Coastal, yet they're still bitching about school.

Weirdos.

I finally got over my cold, even though I still have this ew cough.

But at least I have my voice backkkk.

Me and Matt have been talking a lot! aw! I heart him. He cracks me up.

Russ actually remembered my birthday! yay to him ;].

Anyway..

I dunno what I'm rambling about, there's not much I can say for the past 2 weeks or so, cause I don't really remember that far back.

So yeah.

G'bye

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adadhj [15 Apr 2005|08:55pm]

[ mood | bored ]

[ music | ajdkghajga ]

Monday- I went to class, turned in my English paper...we got to leave right after that..

I went to NMB for the gay interview, I got the job, she called a couple days later to tell me- but I denied it, she was a witch.

I then got my tires put on, instead of Monday. I <3 them. They're big, and pretty, and yeah. I like 'em.

Oh, I went bowling too..it was fun.

Ben, me, Perry & Jennifer all had around the same score the entire time..lol..

I was around 80 all three games. sad. so sad.

Tuesday- I got up and went to get my hair done.

I honestly hated it at first, it was like GOLD- ahh.

Oh, I went and got my nails done too, then screwed them up before i even left the place, ha.

Wednesday- I worked.

Then went bowling again with everyone.

Ben swore I cheated & had someone bowl for me.

I got 115. then went WAY down to 69. and back up to 123 ;) hehe. I'm talented now, biatch. what what?!

Thursday- I got to work, and they sent me home after Jennifer got there at 5.

Came to my dads & wrote my paper.

Today- I woke up & went to class..

Came home.

Slept from 1-3.

Then from 3:30/4-6 or something.

Wow.

Sad, I know.

But yeah.

I'ma go.

BYYYEEE.

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you dun make me change my mindddddd [10 Apr 2005|08:55pm]

[ mood | lonely ]

[ music | Jagged Edge- Let's Get Married ]

It's definitely been a long time since I updated, again.

I know I worked Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday..

Monday they sent me home at five though..

Tuesday I worked til like 9 something, along with Thursday.

Tuesday night I felt like my heart was friggin' breaking knowing Roudy was going home the next morning ;/.

It hurt, badly..and I cried..a long time..which completely stressed him out, and led him to wanting to choke me 'cause he almost started crying, lol..whoops.

Wednesday I woke up and went to class..then came back to Danielle's and laid with him til I had to take him and Mike to the airport around 3:30..I was completely mute the entire drive up there, 'cause I knew if I talked, I'd start crying..

Pulled up the airport, and he tried to rush and get their stuff..'cause he didn't wanna see me start crying again, I refused to look at him..I felt bad, I didn't want him to see me crying..lol..

He got his stuff then walked to my window, and by that time I was definitely ballin'..which led him to saying "I love you, go" haha..sooooorrrrrrrrryyy. oh well. Mike got this pitiful face when he saw me crying too, crazy..

I stayed with Danielle Wednesday again, cause..I didn't wanna be home.

I can definitely say it was weird trying to go to bed, I'd fallen asleep and slept with him every night for the past 10 days..so yeah..it hurt badly, and sucked to no end to have to sleep alone..

I didn't sleep well, at all..

He called me later that night sometime, and I got off the phone..cause it didn't help matters..ha..

Thursday, at work..was boring..

Everyone swears I like Ben, and swears he likes me..

I found out my parents, and every one from work are throwing me a "surprise" party..whoops, I found out.

My 'rents are renting out the Brickhouse at the Surfside Bowling Center..interesting eh? who knows..we'll see..

Friday, I don't remember what I did..

Nor yesterday..

I do know that Brandon likes me now..great huh? psh..

I finished my paper for English this morning, I worked on it late last night, I hope I did semi-well, we'll see I guess.

I only work Wednesday & Thursday this week, yay.

Busy week, or first few days of it at least..

Tomorrow-
I have all my classes.
Going for the job interview at Fairfield resort at 2.
Getting my nails done.
Tanning bed.
Mall.
Bowling.

Tuesday-
Hair highlited and such at 11ish.
Getting my new tires put on my car at 1:30.
Eye doctor at 2:30.
Tanning bed.

Yayyyyy.

I have another paper due in Psychology Friday too, ew. No fun.

My dad's putting the tires on my truck as part of my birthday present, and he's getting me a new chrome grill..

My hair highlited is part of my birthday from my madreeee...

My dad was gonna get me rims too, but I decided I didn't want 'em..

The whole birthday party is also like a kinda graduation party in the mix too, that's why they're making a huge deal, over really nothing..grRr.

I can definitely say I miss Roudy, a whole lot.

awwww..hahaha..he hates pictures.

Hmm..k.

Anyway.

I need to take a shower.

AND figure out what the hell to wear tomorrow..

Seeing how I need to dress kinda up, and not have my boobs hanging out, hahaha..all my lil sundresses and such do so, so I dunno what I'ma do..oh well. we'll seeeeeeeee..

K, I'm gone.

Adios <3

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ahhh [01 Apr 2005|09:47am]

[ mood | exhausted ]

[ music | hmmmmm ]

Wowwwwww..so Sunday night I stayed at Danielle’s when she got home from Columbia..we stayed up until like 4.

I made her go to school late, and she went with me to the airport to pick up Roudy & Mike ;].

We got them at like 9, went back to her house..she got ready, we took her to school…

Then..I took their dumbasses to get alcohol..

I was gonna go to class and such, but..I didn’t..

I was off that night too, so yeah..that was fun..haha..

When we got back to Danielle’s from taking her to school, me and Roudy took a nap..and Mike passed out on the couch..us two eventually woke up & I went home to shower and such..came back over later.

They both got real drunk. Roudy tends to be kinda more of a smart ass and semi-mean when he’s drunk..and he was real drunk..and really being an ass..but, another thing is..when he’s more of an ass he’s more worried about if he pissed me off 5 seconds later…MAJOR mood swings. It’s evil… so yeah, that happened back and forth a lot.

Tuesday..we slept in forever..

I got up & went home to get ready for work..

Work sucked..

They wanted some ketchup and cheese so I stopped and got that before going back to Danielle’s..

Wednesday..
I definitely set my alarm to get up for class, but I definitely put PM instead of AM, so once again I missed class..

Stayed there til work, again..etc.

Yesterday..
Me and Roudy slept til like 3..until I went to pick Danielle up from school and me and her went back to my house so I could shower and such..

We came back to her house..

Us and her mom all went out to eat at the crabhouse..

Mike got realllly drunk, every night so far..especially, ESPECIALLY last night. Roudy hasn’t been drinking with him, and Mike was pretty upset ‘cause he had to do it by himself..he was like “DAMN YOU BREE, it’s all your fault he won’t drink” he wasn’t being mean to be, but Roudy was like “well..he is right” ;/ I felt bad.

Mike got really down..and went outside on the porch himself after he was wasted to no end, and I told Roudy to go check on him..they talked for like a hour..it made me like Mike greatly..they didn’t know I could hear practically everything they say..but it made you realize how true of a friend Mike is to Roudy..

He told Roudy about how he was happy he finally found someone..and whether Roduy knew it or not, he could tell that I truly loved him, even if I’ve never said it..and that no matter what, Roudy should do whatever it takes to keep me..etc etc..the entire time..it was real cute of both of them.

I actually woke up this morning, and am typing this all in class ‘cause I won’t probably have a chance any other time..

I’ve been kinda of sick to my stomach..not good..

I haven’t ate much, at all..I skip like every other day of eating, and when I do eat..after like two bites I feel like I’m gonna throw up..blah..

Anyway..class is over in a few minutes..psychology..then home to change and such..

We’re all supposed to go to the movies tonight.

It’s definitely April fools, and my dad definitely fooled me ;[ evil..

But yeah.

I’m gone..

Byeeeeeee.

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iiiiiiiiiilll take you to the candy shop [26 Mar 2005|11:51pm]

[ mood | excited ]

[ music | 50 Cent- Candy Shop ]

Jason called me at 12 and woke me up, ass.

He wanted me to pick him up from his house & bring him over..so I got ready, we went to Walmart..then I brought him here.

I left & said I was goin' to get my nails done..soo

I went to the tanning bed, stopped by the nail place but she wasn't ready yet, so I went to wash my car..then back to the nail place.

She did them short, but still longer than I usually get them, they look pretty..just hard for me to work with them..grRr.

I came homeee, finished cleaning my car.

Took a shower & what not.

GUESS WHAT?!?!?!

My baby will be here in less than like, 36 hours. YAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

9am, Monday morning I pick him & Mike up from the airport ;DD!

<33 I'm happy, quite happy about that.

I'm off Monday, only work Tuesday & Wednesday.

Anywho.

BYEEEEEEEEEEE

HAPPY EASTERRRRRRRR!

<3333333333

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hmm [26 Mar 2005|12:01am]

[ mood | tired ]

Tuesdayyyy, I worked.

But so did Jennifer, so they let me leave at 6.

Wednesday, I worked. again.

Haha.

Christina was there, so I left at like 8:30.

Thursdayyyyy..I laid out. It was really pretty.

I went shopping too.

Got a couple more pairs of shorts from Rue 21.

Went to walmart, bought some needed stuff.

Ummm..what else.

Who knows.

Everyday, like always..I talked to Roudy..lol..

He sent me a little message Thursday morning. It was sweet. He was worried I was mad at him.

MONDAYYYYYYY he'll be here.

Yayayayayayayayay.

<3333

I can't wait to see himmmmm.

Todayy..I woke up around 12.

Came back to my mom's.

Went to the bank.
Tanning bed.
Walmart.

One of my nails was coming off, so I popped them all off..I'm gonna go get a new set tomorrow sometime.

Going to the tanning bed again tomorrow too.

I cleaned the inside of my car today, gonna clean the outside tomorrow hopefully if it doesn't rain.

Andddddd..hmm..

Yeah..that's about it..

I dislike updating this thing, greatly.

BLAH TO DEADJOURNAL! JUST BLAH~)!*!($!

Haha.

Okay.

G'night my dears <3

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hmmmmm [22 Mar 2005|01:00am]

[ mood | tired ]

[ music | nooooooottthhhiinnnggg ]

SOOOOOO.

Wednesday, I worked.

Thursday, I got paid..woo!

Friday, I went to class..then I stayed with my dad.

Oh, I went shopping too..either Friday or Saturday, I don't remember..

I got 3 shirts from Belks, 2 shirts from Rue 21, 2 pairs of shorts for Rue 21 tooooo..and yeah, I think that's it.

I really don't remember any thing into great detail....ha...

I was supposed to get my nails done, I was too slack though..gotta do that soon.

Spring break is this week..yay.

I worked today, 2 more days left this week..

I've got a bunch I need to do before this week's over.

Re-write my English paper.
Start my 2nd paper.
Wash my car.
Get my nails done.
Get my hair cut.
Eyebrows waxed.
Tanning bed, of course.
Deposit my money.
Go shopping.
And a lot more that I can't remember at the moment..

I'll have Thursday-Sunday to do that at least.

Monday, I'll hafta skip class to pick up Roudy & Mike from the airport at quarter til 9/9:00ish.

They're staying til the 6th..yayy.

I'm staying at Danielle's every night he's here..she's begging me 'cause she doesn't wannabe tortured by them by herself, plus I wanna.

His sister came into town Saturday, I met her..

5 minutes after she met me, she called his mom saying she had..geez..

Ha..

Anyway..

Blah.

He's getting ready to call, so I'ma go..Bye..

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homeee home on the raaaaaaangggee [16 Mar 2005|12:02am]

[ mood | cold ]

[ music | ajdgkajgalh I dunno ]

Sundayyyy..I slept all day, again..haha..how surprising huh?

I woke up at 2, then fell back asleep at like 4 til I was woken up to go eat at Nakato's, blah.

I did nothing all that productive at all this weekend, it's all good though.

I came back to my mom's Monday after class..

13 days til I get to see my babyyy! Yay!! ;]]]

I worked yesterday, and today..tomorrow also.

I think I'm going to take the job typing up contracts for 11 bucks an hour, then waiting tables at the restaurant too...good money, easy stuff..

Hmm..I'm really lacking the desire to say anything, and for one, there's not much to say, lol..nothing's been going on.

I swear it's like the attack of the killer Canadians, so many of them are in town..old, nasty guys. BUUUHHHHHLLAAAAHHH.

I was telling Roudy about one earlier, and he's like "maybe we should just go ahead and get engaged now so all the old men will know" haha, I told him how I wear the ring my dad had made for me, which is just like an engagement ring..and he's like "well, fine..I guess we'll just hold off until you move up here"..hmm..a year? interesting..

He says we'll get married in 3-4 years..

And kids 4-5..hmm..

That puts me at, 21-22 years old.

AH. That's...young, lol.

Oh well.

I'm gonna stay with Danielle tomorrow nightt..

Blah blah blah.

Spring break is next week, yaaaaaay. thank God.

Okay. Done.

GNITE HOMIES! haha.

<33333

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money money moneeyyy [12 Mar 2005|09:33pm]

[ mood | curious ]

[ music | She get it from her mamaaaa ]

Wow, lil slack on the updates once again.

Tuesday- I worked, we have two new guys..I don't remember if I talked about that or not. One of them is nice, the other is..strange.

I still didn't write my paper Tuesday night, even though I stayed at Danielle's and was so sure that I would.

But, it's all good.

Skipped my first class Wednesday once again.

That sucked.

I came to my dad's Wednesday after class.

Yada yada.

Thursday my step mom helped me write my paper.

I went to the Chevelle/Crossfade concert at HOB Thursday too.

Friday I went to all my classes for once, turned in my paper.

We had a test in Psychology too..blah.

I went to Walmart and bought a bunch of feeder fish to give to my Oscar ;[ so depressing haha.

My daddy took my car today & cleaned it & filled it up with gas..wooo. He rocks.

I slept until like 2 something today, that was fun.

It feels like Sunday for some unknown reason.

I'm looking at a new job.

Well, two actually.

One is being an OPC, booking/selling Time Share Tours at a location somewhere around here, or multiple locations. For every tour you book, you can make up to 80 bucks off of that person, and there's no maximum has to how many tours you may book..BUT, the catch is, if you book no tours, you get no money. Still shouldn't be too bad though if my dad's friend gets me a good location.

My second option, is working for the same company, but typing up contracts all day, for 11 bucks an hour..now, typing=extremely easy..and all I'd do would be typing up their written contracts for them. WOO. And, 11 bucks an hour? heck yeah. haha.

Both jobs have benefits if I stay with the company, the OPC has more benefits at my age, but still..that's really good. For around here at my age at least.

I get paid 8.50 now to hostess, which is the only reason I've been there so long..every other job, or person I know around that hostesses, or just around my age that has a job gets paid like 6-7 bucks an hour..but yeah.

I'm kind of happy about all that. Not even 18 & being able to make a decent amount of money an hour doing..nothing. lol.

Anyyywwaayy..

On a different note, Roudy's been pretty good.

Just a few more weeks til he comes down ;] yay.

I heart him, a bunch.

lol.

I'm done rambling about pointless stuff though, so adios.

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hmm yeah [07 Mar 2005|09:26pm]

[ mood | bored ]

[ music | Prayin' for daaaaayyyliigghhtt ]

Ummmm..

So Roudy went home Saturday night and talked to me til like 3 something..

Everything's fine I assume.

Yesterday, I slept until like 2..

Did a whole lot of nothing really..

Watched a bunch of movies with my daddy & such.

Roudy text me at like 1:30am saying he'd call in a lil while, I fell asleep, and woke back up due to a text from Danielle at 2:30 ..so I text him & was like um, yeah you definitely forgot about me..

I thought he'd fallen asleep..but he was wide awake, not paying attention to what time it was.

We got off the phone at like 4ish.

Last night was a little strange, it seemed as though both of us kept getting upset/aggravated with something the other said..I dunno. I felt really bad..

Blah blah blah.

I skipped my first class, cause I had a paper due, so I'll need to do that before Wednesday morning.

Didn't wake up til 9, classes sucked.

We had a test unexpectedly, I got a 95 though..so it's all good.

Work was..great..psh..

K, the end.

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blahhhhhh [06 Mar 2005|12:28am]

[ mood | sad ]

[ music | .. ]

Friday I went to class..that..was fun..psh.

Everyone wanted to kill our psychology teacher..sad eh? ;x.

Oh well.

It’s all good.

I came home and took a shower & what not.. Went to the tannin bed, etc.

Me and Danielle went to see Cursed last night..it was okay I guess.

Roudy was acting extremely strange the past couple of days..

Wednesday, when I stayed at Danielle’s he said I’ve been acting “different” lately..I dunno how, or why..but whatever..

Then last night, he was drunk at Mikes house online..bein’ kinda short with me, so I was like..whatever..then he was like “well I owe Mikes gf a back rub cause I made her cry earlier” or something like that..and he signed off..kay? k..whatever.

I text him at like 4 and was like ..sorry, I heart you, gnite.. Cause I figured I was being kinda short & aggravated/rude with him due to his drunkenness and I felt bad..

He later called me at like 5ish..asking why I was apologizing..etc

I was watching Save The Last Dance at the time so he said he’d let me go & call me tomorrow (today)..said I heart you, and was fine..

At the beginning of the convo he implied I was acting ‘bitchy’ earlier though..eh..

So today he called me at like 2, but I was asleep, and woke up right after though & called him back…

He didn’t recall calling me on the phone last night, and much less calling me bitchy..

Interesting huh?

He was fine and all I guess..

Something still seems strange though, I dunno..I’m kinda worried..

But yeah..he said he’d talk to me later tonight or online or something..

I haven’t talked to him..he was online earlier w/ his AM on, (still at Mikes) and I just IM’ed it saying hi & I hope you’re having a good night..

No response back to my AM, but it’s all good..whatever..

If he calls, he calls..if he doesn’t..forget it..

I’m not gonna try anymore, whatever happens, happens..’cause I mean, whenever I start too care a lot, shit gets fucked up, or ends up fucking up..so I’m just gonna stop before I get even more close to letting myself get hurt..again.

I really..really..care about him..it’s ridiculous how much I do.. -sighs- it’s kinda outta my hands on what happens though..so y’know..

Danielle wants me to go out to eat with her family tomorrow..I really don’t want to ;/

I work only Monday & Tuesday..joy..

Monday I think I have a paper due, I have to check though..it may be Wednesday, I hope and pray.

Friday we have our second psychology test..ew to that.

Thursday is the Chevelle concert that I’m being dragged to..ew again..I don’t feel like going to the HOB.

I went and got my nails done today..yay..

Okay..

Going to watch tv..

I’m..sad..and aggravated, so yeah..

Gnight y’all.

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i miss back whennn [04 Mar 2005|12:13am]

[ mood | tired ]

[ music | Tim McGraw- Back When ]

On a rolllllll againnn..

3 days in a row.

I think it's been my max so far. haha.

Work sucked last night, badly..

But it's all good.

We were so busy it was ridiculous. I wanted to choke everyone.

I went to Danielle's once I got off, and spent the night thereee...

When I was over there, she was online, and Roudy's sister who's like..Danielle's mom's best friend (confusing, I know..but yeah) Lydia is her name by the way. She's like..27-28? But anyway..
She asked Danielle all about me and crap, so that led to me knowing her mother was the one that told/asked her about me, which means Roudy went into detail to his mom..great eh? lol..she was really nice though..it just kinda..tripped me out.

It was amusing though, 'cause she's like "yeah..I think he likes her, does she like him" etc etc..and me and Danielle were laughing, 'cause it's not like me & Roudy don't both already know everything, or how the other feels..so it was semi-funny.

Anyway.

We talked on the phone until like 3, 'cause he came reallllly close to snoring in my ear ;x He didn't wanna get off, yet, he was falling asleep..makes a lotta sense huh?

Hmm.

I fell asleep around 4.

Slept til 2:30ish?

Actually, I was woken up like three times during, twice due to my mother calling..

Once due to Roudy's text message saying "I heart you" ;] lol.

I watched Sweet Home Alabama once I got up toooo..it was really cute.

Hmm, but anyway.

Came home around 5.

Fell asleep earlier, til like 11.

I had a really bad headache.

And once again, I'd still probably be asleep..but Roudy's texting woke me up again saying, "I heart you so damn much" lol..

Not that I'm complaining about his random text messages, at least they're cute and something worth waking up to.

If it were anyone else waking me up I'd probably hurt them.

But yeah.

I'm gonna go waste sometime before he calls.

Take more asprin in hopes my headache goes away.

Anddddd get ready for bed.

Oh oh. I got paid today too YAYAY. More $$. lol.

I think I'm going to see Cursed this weekend..anyone seen it? any good? hmm..A couple of us have been contemplating it.

But yeah.

ADIOS MIS AMIGOS <3

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dgadga [02 Mar 2005|02:09pm]

[ mood | blah ]

[ music | Josh Gracin ]

So, Roudy saw on my Myspace where Nicoleee knew about my moving to PA, and he asked how she knew..and I said from my journalll..which led to him begging for the link..hmm, no?

Nobody reads this thing daily, and if anyone reads it randomly it's only Nicole, Max & Julie..none of which y'all live here..so that doesn't bother me ;].

Oh, and Hilary does too sometimes..but she doesn't run her mouth, so I don't care..

I just..don't like everyone reading it, it's not like I'm trying to hide anything, it's just strange..and yes, I know it's a public online journal, but whatever...if ya read it, ya read it..I'm just not gonna offer ya the link y'know? SHEESH ;x

Anyway.

I went to sleep at like 2:30 last night..maybe 3? I dunno.

Woke up at 8 and got ready for class..

We did absolutely nothing in English, hmm..great..so I left way early.

Psychology..everyone hates him -laughs- at least I'm not alone. He's such an ass for a teacher.

Computers..I feel so bad for him, 'cause he's the nicest guy lil' old man ever..but that class is so ridiculously boring, so I left like 15 minutes in to it after I signed roll..yeah, and the class is a good hour & 20 minutes..oops..

My English paper isn't due until Monday now I think, so that's comforting.

My computer's screwed up..gotta take it to Best Buy to fix the piece of crap.

Hmm, yeah.

Went to the tanning bed just a few ago too..

Gonna go get ready for work.

Adios mis amigos.

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blah [02 Mar 2005|12:47am]

[ mood | sick ]

[ music | Kenny Chesney ]

I've slacked down again, it's ridiculous. Heh.

Last week, classes were pretty easy, seeing how English was canceled..I took a test in one of them though..and didn't do too hot ;x. It's cause I don't ever pay attention to his lectures. I mean, I definitely passed..but I should've gotten an A. Oh well, whatever.

Work sucked, as always.

Friday, I stayed at Danielle's..weekend ritual now, haha.

I don't think we really did anything though.

Saturday, I remember waking up at like 11:30 to call Roudy, 'cause he asked me to make sure he was up..then I fell back asleep til 4pm.

I went & stayed at my dads.

He took Jack & his friend to Laser tag, so I ended up babysitting those two there while my dad practically left..haha

There was like 4 guys working there, and they asked me if Jack was my son..It ended up being their lame way of hitting on me, Thank God. I'm only 17. Jack's like 10..idiots.

They told me I looked like 19, and that he looked 7..that still would've made me 12 when I had the dern boy, that's nuts.

Daddy filled my car up with gas. Yay. I <3 him.

He ended up giving me like 60 bucks too, I think he kept forgetting that he'd already gave me money the time before, 'cause he gave me a 20$ three different times over the weekend, I told him..but he didn't listen.

I stayed there Sunday too.

Um, yeah. Sunday on the phone with Roudy..I started crying.

I felt like I made an ass of myself..eh.

;/.

I felt really bad..I'm not completely sure why I did it, but yeah.

I upset him by something I said, so I felt like shit..then I dunno, it just bugged me on top of some other stuff in general, which led to me crying..

I think I kinda freaked him out cause of it though..definitely wasn't my goal though..gr.

Oh well..I dunno.

I heart him, a lot. and..yeah..

I really should update this thing more often like I used to, 'cause it's helpful.

I can type everything that I don't usually tell people about, even if someone people read it, whatever..I don't care..but it gets my mind off of stuff sometimes, or at least helps me think stuff through..

I worked tonight, and yesterday..

I work tomorrow too..and have classes!..yay.. ;/ I'm supposed to have a paper semi-written by tomorrow morning, haven't started, probably not going to..but oh well..

I get paid Thursday..more moneyyyyyy. woo...

Anyway..

I'm done..

Later <3

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. [23 Feb 2005|12:34am]

[ mood | bored ]

[ music | silence, again ]

3 days in a row! WOO HOO BAYBE!.

haha.

So I stayed up until like 3 on the phone with Roudy.

Went to sleep.

AND I definitely slept until 2 something when I had to get up to get ready for work.

Work sucked.

MAJOR ASS. We were so freaking busy.

I wanted to cry, it was awful.

They finally closed at like quarter til 10, and I went home.

And yeah..that's the extent of my day.

Brian Q. called me by the way, asshole.

Heh.

Oh, thank God I don't have my first class for the rest of the week, get to sleep an extra hour..yay.

Okay. done.

G'nite.

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